Circle Of Trust

For along time I tried to delay reality, I ignored all the signs, because I didn't want to accept the truth, that is I have a large circle I call friends, but for some why? Better yet what is a true friend? They are the ones that are always honest with you, they look out for you, and they respect you. I remember one time I was suppose to ride home with a friend back home at the end of the semester after my final exam, well barely 16 hours before departure I get a call saying there is no space because, he packed everything in the car, and if I rode I would have to have a t.v. in my lap for 5 hours, and I could pack a back pack of my stuff, all this Knowing I was coming back in a week with a truck, and it was urgent I went home that day, I had no food, no money, and a drop of tooth paste. So, I took a train that was scheduled during my final, that hurt my grade, and when I explain this to my friends, everyone said that's how he is, what do you expect? Right then I ignored the fact we expect this person to leave us hanging, in a time of need. Really? But why? Why would you keep someone of that nature around you? Well, as time went by I excepted this time and time again, I can't except it anymore, along with friends that have I known for years, that are just dead weight and do nothing! So, this is to address everything. No, I'm not mad or in my feelings. I'm just being smart and real. they say, "In Life we were born to fly, That's why I travel light".

Dear To Dream

Greetings, I know I hav been missing for sometime and I apologize to those that read my blog. But I have a question, Do you DEAR TO Dream? Do truly visualize outside the box? I ask this because I have been dreaming of my future battles, and how I will handle them. I have been dreaming on how I will leave a mark on this world.

Addiction: MUSIC

Music is one of the greatest things on earth! It links people together. Music touches every topic possible. I’m talking bout all music: rap, RnB, Soul, blues, jazz, techno, club, rock, and etc. music makes you want to dance. Or sing knowing you can’t sing if your life depended on it, but you don’t care because that’s your song! Music can make you laugh, cry, think, want to smoke, have a discussion, make you feel love, and/or make you want to have sex. Remember when you had your first crush? What song was thinking about or singing? Your first phone conversation with the opposite sex, what song was playing in the background? When you go for a walk, what song are you humming to yourself? Or when you’re feeling yourself and your swag is on super high, what song makes you feel that way? I can’t fake, when I thought I was in love, John Legend- “So High” was my shit! Got my heart broken, I couldn’t stand that song! This was my playlist when I was down: Jay-z ft. 3 Doors Down-“Here without you”, Omarion – “Ice Box”, John Legend- “Again or Another Again”, Panic At The Disco-Anything talking about women and relationships, and Bow Wow-“Out of my system”. Damn, I was on some other shit. But when summer roll around I have to hear Jazzy Jeff & Fresh Prince-“Summer time”! When, I’m in my own world, zoning out, I’m listening to Lupe, Kanye, Jay-z, or Linkin Park. If I had to list songs link to moments this what it would look like:

Early high school relationships- Usher- Confessions the album, Musiq-anything he had out, Alicia Keys- Anything she had out, and Jay-z- Song cry!

Senior Year: Kanye- College Dropout, John Legend- “So High and Ordinary People”, Anthony Hamilton- His first album went so hard!!

Summer 07- Plies-“shawty”

Spring Break 08: A Tribe Called Quest- “Can I kick it”

This Summer???????????????????????????????

So, I ask you. What are some of your musical moments? If you don't mind sharing

Breaking Away

So, today I was talking to a friend of mines, I was reading her blog, and she is talking about how she is changing, so I posted a question that lead to a phone discussion, then it hit me that maybe I've change, anyone that knows me well, I love my Bowie crew, we weathered the storms, and adopted to the seasons. But Now that I'm doing this internship, I've gotten distance with them, for once I'm solo. But I don't know how to feel about that, I'm not around am I even a part of the puzzle still? Hav e I forgot who I am? Am I breaking away? I wonder how they feel?